Tuesday, May 3, 2011

working hard for my exam now....

i feel so sad that i have to force myself to improve my English everyday. Such as, read reference books and English newspaper.

but when i have free time, i will start daydreaming. The most horrible is that i still live in the past.
Remember the memory that we had. i cant force myself to stop my dreaming~! What the fuck had u did for me? Why cant i just have my new life? Can u just get out of my sight? Get out of my brain~!

when i was in hostel alone, the tears started to come out of my eyes......the memories started to fly in my brain.

pls give me a way to forget all this................... suffering............~!!!!!

i know we are not soul mate......we did not fit each other........i just want a simple life and a better half who always cares about me..........

Sunday, May 1, 2011

心很痛。。。

有谁能帮我减轻我的痛苦? 很不开心。。。很难过。。。
今天听到一个消息, 突然觉得窒息了。。。脑袋空白。。。。
我一直装的很开心,很坚强,很放下。。。
一切在一瞬间崩溃了。。。。
突然觉得身边没有人给我诉苦。。。。。
好孤单,好寂寞。。。。
每天卸下开心的面具,陪伴我的都是泪痕满满的伤心脸庞。。。
我一直带着开心的面具,其实是因为我在欺人, 但重要的是自欺。。。。
想起我们以前的过去,怪就怪我们之间有太多回忆。。。。
我去到那里都有你的影子。。。。
好痛苦。。。。。
曾经的我们是多么的爱对方。。。。。。。
现在呢? 你怀里已经有了另一个。。。。
当初不问你分手的原因,其实我大概懂为什么。。。
真的很不习惯想像你怀里抱着另一个的画面。。。。
心里有一种东西被抽离的感觉。。。。。
好像很空虚。。。。。。。。。